Again it has been ages. I wasn't in the mood to update this. I didn't really have anything to say. I also haven't really done anything in ages. I hope to change that soon (as always).

On the bright side I got my own camera! Which I'm super happy with. No more having to borrow the school's camera wewt!.

I'll be going home to the Caribbean soon and I will be taking my camera with me. I'm looking forward to taking pictures there and hoping to see if I've matured in any way when it comes to photography.

As for drawing...I don't know yet...my life seems so chaotic that it feels like I barely make any progress. Alot of things take place at the same time and I manage to get through it and all but I feel like I haven't really added anything to myself as a person. I'm left feeling dissapointed. I don't know what's up. So far unexplainable.

I mean I've already took my year off from school to "add to my life's experience" but I feel like I'm still lacking so much. A big piece of me is still missing. I feel it every day...how I long for something else and yet I have no idea what I should do.

This feeling of getting nowhere it's starting to affect me more and more each day. At this rate I'm going to crumble. Everything else is happening so fast, like school and other things around me but I feel like it shouldn't be like this.

I know that time doesn't stand still but every one has their own pace don't they? I want to grow and progress in the things I love but how can I when I have to focus on so many other things? I'm also afraid of letting others down but at this rate I'm about to let myself down...

I'm hoping to find an answer when I return home. It'll do me some good.